Saturday, December 28, 2019

a letter, written in response to a facebook post from Ken Zabriskie 12/28/2019


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joey_Feek
She lost her battle with cancer about the time wife won hers.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xcpjSMmWUDw&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR04W5WItn3ygHTmI5PdIjFEvPtRy0DYA8vMYwecB2ZSopVMWxRqvmeI4dY



Kenny
In the spring of 2015, I nearly lost my bride to gastric cancer.  She had this cancer most of our married life.  Gastric cancer, in our case, was a slow burner.  It took nearly 20 years to catch fire.  When I would question my wife about its progress, she assured me it was not a problem, their became a time when she came to me and said it was now a problem.  She had been given six months to live.  She chose no chemotherapy or x-ray treatments.  She wanted to keep this private in our family.   To use this time to build memories for her children to carry the remainder of their days.  I was filled with anger and rage and shame.  So many confusing thoughts and memories. The comfort God offered me, was the poetry. This is a gift I adore yet never desired to form.

I feel the pain and suffering and joy in your post.  I wonder what gifts God has given with you as you have traveled this journey and felt this pain.  I don’t think God gave my wife cancer to develop my poetry.  I could not worship a God who was so cruel.  I feel that he offered me this give a gift, to help support, my journey.  I nearly ended my life one day when the pain was too much.  I am glad I did not and I see the joy my wife and I know enjoy with her recovery.

You may ask how this cure was possible and I have no explanation.  Like the miracle of Jesus curing a man blindness with mud, her cancer was cured with an herbal recipe, that has never worked since.  But this I am grateful for, her health and the gift of the poetry.

May I then share this poem with you about the experience, in hope that you may discover the gifts god offered you with your longing a desire to be the ones who are gone.








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