Friday, June 26, 2020

On faithful disbelief


Richard Feynman stated somewhere, and I have lost the reference, that the most difficult person to teach science to is a religious person.  In his philosophy of science, the most powerful tool is to learn to disbelieve.

It is hard for a religious person to disbelieve.  We have the “I know narrative in our church.”  We teach our children from a very young age that “I know” and that it is important to know. It gets ingrained and the truly faithful person always knows.  The most faithful then become bishops and stake presidents.  The strongest “I know’s” then become the Seventies, Apostle, and Prophets. When you know you fail to investigate your truth. 

Along come people who are comfortable with not knowing but have sufficient belief.  They first investigate their disbelief and then they begin to investigate their errors. This happened to faithful church scholars in the 1960s. They then discover that Joseph Smith did indeed allow Negro priesthood ordination.  This knowledge then filters up to the “I Knows” and then one dares to pray about it, to discover if his belief was correct and then, to find a method to confirm his errors to the remainders of the “I knows”.

You see this same narrative in Richard Bushman's work when he begins to reteach the “I Knows” about seer stones. It has taken some time but the, “I knows” are beginning to teach about the seer stones again.

It takes time to learn to be a faithful disbeliever.  It is hard and time-consuming and there are no rewards, there is only rejection. Most take the path of least resistance and leave the church. It is hard to be a faithful disbeliever.

I hope you have the courage to stay and to be a faithful disbeliever.  This church really needs you if the restoration is to continue.

Richard Feynman On religion

Wednesday, June 24, 2020

On God being with me in Hell

So I was sitting at my work station changing out LEDs on a display panel. They say you can tell what matters to a man when he is thinking when he has free time to think. Changing led’s on a panel is not difficult and it requires little mental energy. I was thinking about the essay on Telling God to go to Hell. I was wondering if God would go to hell for me. Was he with Corrie ten Boom, the Nazi Concentration Camp, or Dietrich Bonhoeffer in the Nazi Jail and his martyrdom?

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

on telling God to go to Hell

Has there been a time when you just wanted to tell God to go to Hell? After 40+ years of deep study of church history and doctrine, I was very unhappy with my "church experience" I would come home from church services so hungry and craving more, more of what I was uncertain but I needed more. I remember taking out the garbage one night and cursing God in my unhappiness. When in 2015 my wife was in end-stage cancer and my daughter was not speaking to me. I just wanted to tell God to go to Hell.

I have since learned that my Heavenly Parents just wanted to be with me, in a relationship. I sure my Heavenly Mom wanted to cuddle with me, but in my anger and shame, I was pushing them both away. I have found some peace now as I serve my Earthy Father and my daughter has forgiven me for causing the distance between us.

Maybe the answer comes in the service I offer and not in the answer's I demand.

"I gave You my heart
So, tell me, why is it broken?
If You're the healer,
Why are my wounds still open?
What do You want from me?
Are You sure You want everything?
Even my honesty?
Even my honesty
Even my honesty"

"I know You've promised that You won't leave me broken
But right now I need to know You're here in this moment
Why won't You answer me? (Answer me)
What do You want from me?
When all I can bring You is my doubt and my anger
You'd still rather fight with me than let us be strangers
Is that what You want from me? (Want from me)
The way You get close to me
Are You sure You want all of me?
All of my agony?
All of my questioning?
Even my honesty?"

Jason Gray - "Honesty"

Sunday, June 21, 2020

Why we build temples.



We as Mormons build temples for a very unique reason. The first modern temple built was at Kirtland Ohio.  It was built not as a place to worship a god but a place for our Heavenly Parents to be with their children.  The knew the world they had created was a dirty place.  It was a world full of sin and degradation. They knew, when they sent our first earthly parents, Adam and Eve, that it would be so.  It was part of their plan, for us to learn, to be like them.  Still, they wanted to be with their children again. So they ask Joseph to built them a temple, where they could be with their children again and anew.

In our first fifty years, we built very few chapels and churches. We build four temples, and The Endowment House and a Social Hall before we ever build a church.  We inherited one chapel, from the United Brethren in England when the entire congregation joined the Mormon church.  This was quickly sold to fund their immigration to Utah. It seems we preferred to worship in open-walled boweries, similar to our park pavilions today.

Today, because of a global pandemic we have lost the use of our chapels and temples.  We now worship in our homes, like our ancient parents did, in Isreal. We know not how long this will continue. We have been stripped of all the programs that form a religion and we are left with our family, the sacrament, and the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

I hope we remember this time, and teach our children of these times, and remember what true religion should be.  “ Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.” James 1:27