I Agree with A Pagan
Arnold Toynbee - London, England
“I believe there may be some things that some people may know
for certain, but I also believe that these knowable things aren’t what matters
most to any human being.”
I have spent the better part of my life soaking up
information. I have learned so much now that it is a great mish-mash of
data scrambled in mind. I have Asperger’s, a form of high functioning
autism. I am high functioning enough that you could not detect it unless
you knew me well. The greatest benefit is its greatest affliction.
I must continually feed my mind new information. I have gathered enough
information that I am certain that gaining more knowledge does not lead to
greater wisdom or happiness.
I wrote a motto for myself a number of years ago. It is on
the masthead of my website mymuzes.org
“Real growth comes in the margins with rising levels of
uncertainty.”
I am married to a woman of simple needs. She needs a
loving husband. She needs children and she has a need for a place to
plant flowers. That is the one thing she requested, when we married, a
place to plant flowers.
I have tried for years to get her to discuss Star Wars, or Star
Trek, or John Milton. She will have none of it. She is completely
uninterested in these subjects. It has been a source of great
friction between us leading to many angry conversations.
I am learning to simplify my life and belief. My wife
loves me. My children are doing well. I need to forgive and be
grateful.
I don’t
think I can stop my mind from acquiring new data. I entertain myself at work
by listening to podcast and audiobooks. I know that this is just a distraction
and not real life. Real life is cooking and cleaning and planting
flowers. Real life is visiting a friend or petting a puppy.
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